Blogging and jogging

Last week I wrote about my junk food addiction and I knew when I wrote that column that it would hit home for some readers and not register at all with others. I also knew I’d get a lot of advice from people about how to lose weight, which I gratefully accepted.

While many of the suggestions I received were excellent and ones I will look into, I actually do know a little something about how to lose weight and have been successful at doing so many times. What I’m far less knowledgeable about is how to conquer my self-sabotaging ways which lead me back to a place of eventually feeling heavy and unfit again.

If there’s a magic potion for that, I’m in, but after decades of trying almost every diet solution out there, I’m quite convinced there isn’t a simple or easy cure for self-destruction.  I’m no psychiatrist, but I believe that conquering that kind of behaviour, and unhealthy addictions in general, has more to do with our minds and our own feelings of self worth than anything else.

Yes, consuming healthy foods will assist with a healthier mindset, which is why I’m finally eating clean, drinking eight waters a day and exercising when I can.  I’m also recording everything I consume at MyFitnessPal.com because I believe that logging a diary of what I put in my body will help keep me on track to reaching my goals. For anyone out there looking to get healthier and wanting to sign up to this free website, please connect with me there if you’d like to encourage each other along the way.

Okay, no more weight loss talk for awhile. I don’t want to bore the heck out of all the readers out there who could care less about this topic and have probably stopped reading this article already. As of this week I’ll be blogging about random topics that interest me on my newly-updated website and I’ll undoubtedly write about this particular subject from time to time. If you’d like to connect with me there, please do. Subscriptions to my website are free and weekly prizes will be given out to those who sign up.

Along with my blogs I will also be posting cartoons courtesy of my talented cartoonist Jim Hunt, and I’m always open to any feedback or ideas that anyone would like to share.

Why I would choose to write more when I clearly could use the time in the gym or doing countless other things is a little beyond me right now. All I can say is that I have this overwhelming urge to share more than I already do in my weekly newspaper columns.

There’s something about blogging that’s different than column writing and I guess the biggest difference is the lack of rules that apply when you’re writing online. I can be as brief or as lengthy as I wish and I can write about whatever topic interests me in that moment with little regard to appealing to the masses.

The definition of a blog according to the Urban Dictionary on the internet is this: A meandering, blatantly uninteresting online diary that gives the author the illusion that people are interested in their stupid, pathetic life.

With a description as wonderful as that, who wouldn’t want to spend their valuable time blogging? Now if I could only figure out a way to blog and jog simultaneously, I’d be set.

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Food for thought

You are what you eat, and I’m tired of feeling like junk. So, guess what? I’m finally doing something about it.

Since adolescence I’ve used unhealthy foods to deal with uncomfortable feelings of anxiety, stress and depression comparable to a drug addict or an alcoholic. I’m 45 now, and this has been a big issue in my life for the last 30 years. I’m 5-foot-6-inches tall and I’ve been as heavy as 215 pounds and as light as 125 pounds, but no matter what weight I’ve been, I’ve never given up on the junk.

Even when I was at my lowest weight, which turned out to be too thin to maintain, I still consumed lots of candies, refined carbs and diet sodas, so I was never the picture of health.

“You’re a thin person in a fat person’s body,” a gym owner once told me in my second hour on his sweat-soaked treadmill. I was insulted at the time, but he was right. I was skinny from my calorie-restricted diet and my workout overloads, but I wasn’t healthy. As always, I was treating my body like a garbage disposal unit.

Why? Initially I didn’t know any better. As a tween I slept with bricks on my stomach thinking that would flatten my belly. It didn’t. As a teen working at McDonalds, I’d survive on Big Macs and chicken nuggets, gain weight,  and then suddenly limit myself to grapefruit juice and mixed nuts. Of course I’d lose weight on a silly diet like that, but I’d always gain it back.

After succeeding and failing on so many different diets over the years, I started learning more about my physical make-up as well as what’s psychologically driving me to self-sabotage when I’m just starting to feel and look good.

This is a complicated issue, and anyone who thinks dieting is pure mathematics obviously doesn’t have the same problems that I, and millions of others do when it comes to food addiction. Or perhaps I should say junk addiction, because it’s not real food that’s the issue. It’s the processed crap that passes for food in the grocery store and often has little or no nutritional value whatsoever.

“I stick to the outside perimeter of the store when I go grocery shopping,” my friend told me recently. “Haven’t you ever noticed that all the packaged stuff that our bodies don’t need is in the middle aisles?”

I have noticed that, and I’ve had that pointed out to me many times. Yet just because you know the facts doesn’t mean you’ll make wise decisions. Any smoker can tell you that.

As I mentioned, I’m tired of feeling like junk, so I’m not putting any more of it into my body. No more pop, candy, processed foods or anything else that ends up making me feel gross.

It’s easy to say these words in a moment of strength, but what will I do when I get that overwhelming desire to self-sabotage like I always do? My plan is to write about the experience in a journal and record everything I consume on MyFitnessPal.com, a free diet and fitness site supporting people with health goals.

I want to know the reason I deliberately spoil my well-laid plans, and the trick to conquering this behaviour. I think it’s different for everyone, but if anyone wants to share what worked for them, please contact me at loriwelbourne.com

Knowledge is power, and I’m ready to accept any advice that will help me climb out of my garbage can.